Saturday, November 26, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Like a kid on Christmas Eve
Im writing this the night before my entire life changes. It changed once back in February of 2010, I added a premanent person to my life, and its about to change again as I add another one. My mom flew into town last night, and she went to my check up with me this morning. My doctor was happy to let me know that Im ready to be induced tomorrow. He said the hospital is going to be calling me around 5:30 or 6:30am to set up my time to come in. Its an erie feeling knowing what is around the corner, but its also beyond amazing.
I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. Knowing that in a few short hours the day that you have been waiting anxiously in anticipation for is finally here. It's going to happen and you are so excited you can hardly sleep. You are also a little sad because you know that this day you have been waiting for is about to be over too. Nine months I have been carrying this baby. Nine months of excitement, of preparing, and jitters, and what-if's, and then its finally over. It actually makes me a little sad when I think about her being on the outside of my body. Not so sad when I walk the entire stretch of the mall, wishing ao badly she was in a stroller and easy to push, rather than tug around on the front of my body like a 10 pound permanent back-pack. Im sad that I wont have feel her every movement, every twitch, every hiccup anymore, Im going to miss that bond with her. Im also sad that once she is out, she is out in the world. She is going to be defenseless at times, and she is going to grow, faster than I want her too. She is going to live life, when sometimes I wish we could live life joined together always. But I am more excited that she will soon be in my arms, and I can finally put a face to the invisible love I already have for her.
Tonight is my last night with my husband alone. I literally tear up as Im typing this. The honeymoon is over, and no doubt that this will bring us closer, but part of me wants to crawl in bed and cling to him for dear life, while the entire world stops. I feel the end drawing near, and I feel like there isn't enough time left for us to just be US for a few last hours. I'm going to miss him. Him in the role than he is now, but oh to see him in the role of dad makes my heart flutter. He will be such a wonderful dad.
Tomorrow my life changes, and we couldn't be more blessed.
I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. Knowing that in a few short hours the day that you have been waiting anxiously in anticipation for is finally here. It's going to happen and you are so excited you can hardly sleep. You are also a little sad because you know that this day you have been waiting for is about to be over too. Nine months I have been carrying this baby. Nine months of excitement, of preparing, and jitters, and what-if's, and then its finally over. It actually makes me a little sad when I think about her being on the outside of my body. Not so sad when I walk the entire stretch of the mall, wishing ao badly she was in a stroller and easy to push, rather than tug around on the front of my body like a 10 pound permanent back-pack. Im sad that I wont have feel her every movement, every twitch, every hiccup anymore, Im going to miss that bond with her. Im also sad that once she is out, she is out in the world. She is going to be defenseless at times, and she is going to grow, faster than I want her too. She is going to live life, when sometimes I wish we could live life joined together always. But I am more excited that she will soon be in my arms, and I can finally put a face to the invisible love I already have for her.
Tonight is my last night with my husband alone. I literally tear up as Im typing this. The honeymoon is over, and no doubt that this will bring us closer, but part of me wants to crawl in bed and cling to him for dear life, while the entire world stops. I feel the end drawing near, and I feel like there isn't enough time left for us to just be US for a few last hours. I'm going to miss him. Him in the role than he is now, but oh to see him in the role of dad makes my heart flutter. He will be such a wonderful dad.
Tomorrow my life changes, and we couldn't be more blessed.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Everything except pregnancy
So you want to hear about something other than me being pregnant? I bet you do! I swore I would never be "that girl" that only updated facebook and my blog about preggo bliss, but I am. Im sure I've been hidden a few times on facebook. I dont hate. I would hide me too. haha And Im sure I will be "that girl" who does the same with her "omg she is the cutest thing in the world, look at her spit up on her clothes" pictures of the new baby. Ya'll have been warned.
Anyway I figured I would throw in a post about pretty much everything but me being pregnant, which might be a little hard since it pretty much rules my life. But lets do this!!!!
Recently a little icecream shop in Provo opened up in the Provo Beach Resort. It has Blue Bell icecream. I had never had Blue Bell, but my husband is from Houston, Texas, and appartently Blue Bell is boss down there, and my husband doesn't let me forget it ever since we were dating. So to make a long story short, we have visited more times than I am willing to admit, and Scott takes it very seriously.
I also just want to let people in on a little secret. Forever 21 actually makes some pretty quality nail polishes. I know! who would have thought?? I saw this pretty random red glitter one day, maybe a year ago, and I thought I would try it out, and at $2.80 a piece it wasn't too much of a risk. Well it was surprisingly good, and I have since bought about 15 of them. They actually go on smooth, and last a while without chipping (as long as you cover it with a top coat of course) So try it out, I promise the polishes last longer than the clothes.
Scott and I have recently started watching a new TV show, The Walking Dead. A girl at work told me about it, and we checked it out on Netflix. Disgusting and AWESOME!We also started watching Last Man Standing on ABC. Its a Tim Allen show and is actually quite a bit like Home Improvement, which is a Scott favorite. I hope they pick it up for a second season, I love watching hubby gets so happy and excited over a show.
Well Im rather pooped because I got a maternity massage today and just took a blazing hot shower in an attempt to actually sleep tonight. But I will leave you with this little gem.
I know, I know, its prego related, but Im really gonna miss the belly shelf. Its so dang useful!
Anyway I figured I would throw in a post about pretty much everything but me being pregnant, which might be a little hard since it pretty much rules my life. But lets do this!!!!
Recently a little icecream shop in Provo opened up in the Provo Beach Resort. It has Blue Bell icecream. I had never had Blue Bell, but my husband is from Houston, Texas, and appartently Blue Bell is boss down there, and my husband doesn't let me forget it ever since we were dating. So to make a long story short, we have visited more times than I am willing to admit, and Scott takes it very seriously.
I also just want to let people in on a little secret. Forever 21 actually makes some pretty quality nail polishes. I know! who would have thought?? I saw this pretty random red glitter one day, maybe a year ago, and I thought I would try it out, and at $2.80 a piece it wasn't too much of a risk. Well it was surprisingly good, and I have since bought about 15 of them. They actually go on smooth, and last a while without chipping (as long as you cover it with a top coat of course) So try it out, I promise the polishes last longer than the clothes.
Scott and I have recently started watching a new TV show, The Walking Dead. A girl at work told me about it, and we checked it out on Netflix. Disgusting and AWESOME!We also started watching Last Man Standing on ABC. Its a Tim Allen show and is actually quite a bit like Home Improvement, which is a Scott favorite. I hope they pick it up for a second season, I love watching hubby gets so happy and excited over a show.
Well Im rather pooped because I got a maternity massage today and just took a blazing hot shower in an attempt to actually sleep tonight. But I will leave you with this little gem.
I know, I know, its prego related, but Im really gonna miss the belly shelf. Its so dang useful!
Monday, November 14, 2011
HEY! yeah im still here.
...Just waiting and waiting. 2 false alarms later, and still waiting. So what's up? Im pretty miserable, I feel like a wounded deer, its just best someone put me out of my misery than for me to struggle on like this. Last night I cried on the couch from 1-3 am in pain, very much considering going back into Labor and Delivery, and finally tuckering out like 5 year old after after a major temper tantrum. Pity me please :(
Please come baby A. Pretty please. So many people are anxiously waiting for your arrival. Im also sick of getting texts and facebook messages from people saying they can't believe you are not born yet. So lets get a move on. I know its not your due daye yet, but I have been in "pre-labor" for a week now and you have yet to emerge, making mommy quite uncomfortable and cranky.
There is only one exit darling, you are more than welcome to use it as soon as you like. The sooner the better.
Please come baby A. Pretty please. So many people are anxiously waiting for your arrival. Im also sick of getting texts and facebook messages from people saying they can't believe you are not born yet. So lets get a move on. I know its not your due daye yet, but I have been in "pre-labor" for a week now and you have yet to emerge, making mommy quite uncomfortable and cranky.
There is only one exit darling, you are more than welcome to use it as soon as you like. The sooner the better.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
The end is near.
I am due in 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS!! ! Its seriously starting to freak me out because I know it could happen anytime at this point. It weird to think I wont be pregnant anymore, but Scott and I are ready. Really ready. I can't wait to hold her, and see her, and dress her up, and feed her, and kiss her little face. I think Im in love her right now? yeah right. I have no idea. And that is why I am so anxious.
Aside from just wanting her out cause we want to see her, I also am pretty darn tired. Just staning from siting or laying postion is exhausting. Sleeping is a nightmare. With my Sciatica, I toss and turn all night long in so much pain, cry almost nightly, and wake up and can barely walk. But it will all be worth it. I would do it all over again for her, and then some. But the hospital bag is packed, the nursery is done, her clothes are washed, this is my last week of work, and we just wait now.
Some things Im going to miss about being pregnant:
-Feeling her move all day. Getting jabbed in the ribs=not so much fun. Seeing my whole stomach ripple=super cool
-Having an excuse for being slow, forgetting things, over eating, and taking excessive naps.
-My "belly shelf"
-everyone telling me "Im SO cute" everyday. No longer will I be called cute, when I am haggered in my sweats, bags under my eyes, and no sleep. All cute comments will go straight to the main attraction.
-Help. Help from my husband, help from strangers, people being more polite, people letting me cut them in line for the bathroom because "I need it more", people holding the door for me, taking my shopping car from me. The list goes on.
-Working. This is true to some extent. I really really love my job. I really really love my co-workers. I really really am going to miss it, and I can't work full time with my new baby, so stay at home mom is about to be my new job. Im excited, but Ill miss my old one.
-All the excitement of getting ready. The whole process! How many people are excited for you, all the belly pictures, watching her grow, having little parties for her arrival.
Things I am NOT going to miss about being pregnant:
-How slow and tired I am. ALWAYS. EVERYDAY. I feel like I need a nap after everything.
-Not being able to take on and off my own shoes
-Being afraid to sleep at night. I know my sleeping is not about to get any better anytime soon, but at least I wont be sobbing in pain anymore... Ill just be sobbing in frustration!
-Having to pee 20 plus times a day.
-Wearing maternity clothes. I have some cute ones, butI pretty much bought myself a whole new ward robe for after she is out, and I cannot WAIT to wear them.
-Crying about everything. I know hormones will be crazy for a while after the baby comes, so I dont expect it too soon. But Im excited to not randomly break down and cry driving past a beggar on the street corner, or better yet, randomly sobbing on date night, DURING dinner, about being deaf in one ear (something I came to terms with a long time ago???")
-Finally...lets just say the love life is about to get A LOT easier to work with hahaha giant bellys and romantic times with your husband are not friends.
All in all I am just beyond excited to move from this stage to the next. Pregnancy, you have been fun, but I think its time we move on from eachother, at least for a few years.
Aside from just wanting her out cause we want to see her, I also am pretty darn tired. Just staning from siting or laying postion is exhausting. Sleeping is a nightmare. With my Sciatica, I toss and turn all night long in so much pain, cry almost nightly, and wake up and can barely walk. But it will all be worth it. I would do it all over again for her, and then some. But the hospital bag is packed, the nursery is done, her clothes are washed, this is my last week of work, and we just wait now.
Some things Im going to miss about being pregnant:
-Feeling her move all day. Getting jabbed in the ribs=not so much fun. Seeing my whole stomach ripple=super cool
-Having an excuse for being slow, forgetting things, over eating, and taking excessive naps.
-My "belly shelf"
-everyone telling me "Im SO cute" everyday. No longer will I be called cute, when I am haggered in my sweats, bags under my eyes, and no sleep. All cute comments will go straight to the main attraction.
-Help. Help from my husband, help from strangers, people being more polite, people letting me cut them in line for the bathroom because "I need it more", people holding the door for me, taking my shopping car from me. The list goes on.
-Working. This is true to some extent. I really really love my job. I really really love my co-workers. I really really am going to miss it, and I can't work full time with my new baby, so stay at home mom is about to be my new job. Im excited, but Ill miss my old one.
-All the excitement of getting ready. The whole process! How many people are excited for you, all the belly pictures, watching her grow, having little parties for her arrival.
Things I am NOT going to miss about being pregnant:
-How slow and tired I am. ALWAYS. EVERYDAY. I feel like I need a nap after everything.
-Not being able to take on and off my own shoes
-Being afraid to sleep at night. I know my sleeping is not about to get any better anytime soon, but at least I wont be sobbing in pain anymore... Ill just be sobbing in frustration!
-Having to pee 20 plus times a day.
-Wearing maternity clothes. I have some cute ones, butI pretty much bought myself a whole new ward robe for after she is out, and I cannot WAIT to wear them.
-Crying about everything. I know hormones will be crazy for a while after the baby comes, so I dont expect it too soon. But Im excited to not randomly break down and cry driving past a beggar on the street corner, or better yet, randomly sobbing on date night, DURING dinner, about being deaf in one ear (something I came to terms with a long time ago???")
-Finally...lets just say the love life is about to get A LOT easier to work with hahaha giant bellys and romantic times with your husband are not friends.
All in all I am just beyond excited to move from this stage to the next. Pregnancy, you have been fun, but I think its time we move on from eachother, at least for a few years.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Maternity Pictures
Here are a few of our maternity pictures. There are SO many beautiful photos to choose from, so I didnt put all of them up, but they were all just lovely. Thanks to my dear friend Kristy. She did an amazing job.
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