something to think about

Today I went to Wal-mart to get groceries and on my way out of the parking lot I saw something that moved me to tears. There was a begger at the end of the parking lot. Yes yes there are lots of beggers everywhere, and no this was not my first time seeing one for those of you wondering what the big deal was. Normally I know beggers can be con artists, or they use the money they get for drugs or booze. But this man was holding a sign that said "Homeless, I need food. Every bit helps. God Bless." He was literally collecting food, not money (although he would have taken that too Im sure). People were handing him bags from their car of cans, cereal boxes. I pulled up to him and he smiled and I smiled a sad smile and pulled past him, flinching as I did it. I instantly started sobing, and I cried half way home. I felt bad I didnt give him anything, but all I had was spagehetti sauce cans, and frozen popcorn chicken, and what was he going to do with that? But that was not what I was sad about.

I was sad because reality hit me HARD. How often am I worrying about my bills, how I dont have enough clothes, about how many things stress me out...what a little brat I am! I have an amazing home, with an amazing husband, I drive a great car, I have a job, wonderful friends and family, and food, and this man has nothing. How can I complain about having such a hard life sometimes and I have no room to talk and no idea what its like.

God has blessed my life so so so much. I could not be more happy about the opportunities that have been placed in my life. I need to remember other people more, I need to serve other people more and I KNOW that all the stress in my life will seem so small.

A Walk to Remember

Last night I had a wonderful time with my husband while we went on a walk. We didn't go very far, but it was awesome to just spend some stress free time together. I loved walking, talking, and laughing with Scott. It was the perfect temperature too! It was not too hot and not too cold, I just loved walking hand in hand with man that I love and knowing that I get to do that forever.
Being able to spend that evening with him made me think...
I feel so blessed and so lucky to have such an amazing person in my life. He is truly the best person I have ever met and is my very best friend. He treats me like an absolute princess and is so gentle and loving with me in every way. Every night I get to fall asleep with his arms wrapped around me, and every morning I get to open my eyes and see the most important thing in my life. I have been through some serious heartbreaks, and thought I was in love a few times, but nothing has ever compared to the bond and the unspeakable love Scott and I share, and I know now that all the things I have been through and all the people I spent time with have only prepared me for Scott. I have such respect and admiration for the person that he is and all that he stands for. He knows what he wants from life, he has drive, he has passion, and he is just a good person that can take me to the temple. I cannot be more thankful for anything than that.
I am so happy that I get to spend the rest of my life with my best friend, I am so blessed that god loved me so much that he would give me such a light in my life, and I am so excited to start a new life and and an eternal family with him.

Scrapbooking

the "ode" to ashley haha

Im starting a new scrapbook for Scott and I. All I have to say is that scrapbooking completes my life. These are the pages I did today from our wedding.

An Eventful Night

So 2 nights ago Scott and I went on a date to the dollar movie, obviously a very popular thing to do with young mormons in Provo... it was so packed I thought we might not even get in, but we did :) We went to see The Lovely Bones. I had been looking forward to seeing this movie for sometime, but since ...#1 im cheap and #2 my husband and I had been doing the long distance thig our entire engagement, so I didn't have anyone to go with; I still had not seen it.

I was a little worried becuase I really liked the book, I had read it like 3 times in fact back in High School. But like most book to movie creations, they usually SUCK! (example: Twilight)
I was pleasently surprised though, it was pretty accurate, and although a few things were different, for the most part it was the best book to movie translation I have seen yet. But that is just my opinion. YAY FOR THE LOVELY BONES!

So later that night after the movie, Scott and I were watching TV on the couch. He had turned on the Travel Channel and since it was like 11:30 they had on one of those paranormal ghost hunting shows. Most of those are pretty dumb, but this one seemed legit. I think it was cause these guys actually go out seeking the demons and such and provoke them, asking them to come out, make noises, touch them even. Im not gonna lie, this episode was kinda freaking me out, and apparently Scott too. We fell asleep with Scott spooning me, next thing I know I fly off the couch, freaking out, so he starts freaking out. "you just smacked me with the remote!" I yelled at him. He really did. He started denying it, saying it was not true. But ill tell you what, he full on smacked me with the remote while he was asleep. I was so scared I didnt even want to go near him again. But he convinced me to come to bed. So we fell asleep in bed, and I am not joking, not even 30 minutes into us laying there, he starts yelling! Out of the blue he just starts yelling, casting out demons in the name of Christ! Yeah so if Iwas not already freaked out by my husband...

So yesterday was Sunday ((nap day!!!)) and we were in bed taking a nice nap, when Scott starts grabbing my legs and attacking me...he was not asleep, but I guess he just thought it would be really funny to play a joke on me since Im still scared of him. I'll let you know when Im not afraid of sleeping with my husband haha. Long story short, don't fall asleep watching ghost hunting shows, you will continue to pay for it.

GUESS WHAT???? we got married :)

Yup! its official, we got married. Feb 20th was the perfect day, it had been raining/snowing almost everyday in the day prior and I was totally prepared to have to use an umbrella for the whole wedding day. But luckily it was beautiful outside!!! clear blue skies and all. The pictures are going to be very gorgeous... and misleading! haha you would have thought that it was 60 degrees outside that day, and yes although it was very nice weather, it was like 40 degrees outside, with like the wind chill of-15 below! ok im exagerating, but seriously though, it was FREEEEEEZING! it may be to this date, the coldest i have ever been. I was in a short sleeved dress, and nothing else. My hands were red and during one picture Alison asked me to hold my veil, and I could not even grip it cause my fingers were frozen. I couldnt bend them for about half an hour after we got inside.

Everything else though was amazing, the pictures ((coming soon from the fabulous Alison Worthin)) down to the dinner. I loved every single minute of my wedding day, not to mention the wedding night :) if you know what I mean. More than anything I am so happy to be married to the man of my dreams, who makes me the happiest girl in the entire world.

p.s. wedding pictures will be posted as soon as they are in my hands