Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Real Love & Bliss

Yesterday while driving to school I saw something beautiful. A truly, passionate, heartfelt, straight out off the movie screen kiss. And they didn't even know I saw them.

I was driving through a neighborhood in Provo, driving slower than normal, considering I was not actually late this time, and there I saw it. On the front lawn of a small house, a young woman, probably 20 or 21, stood in her peacoat, looking around the corner of the house, obviously searching for something. I watched as a man, probably around the same age or older, sneak up behind her, startle her and then they both smiled. He put both hand on the sides of her face, and then proceeded to give her a kiss like I had never seen. She responded quite well, she recipricated by placing her hands around the back of his biceps, and pulling him in closer. The kiss was not rushed. The kiss was not forced, hard, or sloppy, it wasn't even playful, which would have matched the scenario its seemed they were just previously in. No one else was around, they werent showing off for friends or family. Weren't taking engagement pictures, just loving eachother unaware of bystanders.

It was genuinly beautiful. I smiled as I kept driving, and I felt happy. I felt peaceful. Peaceful knowing that with all the crap that happens in life, there is only one true pure and genuine thing left on this earth. True Love. That couple was in love. There no doubt about that. It might be dumb to assume from one simple kiss I saw driving by that they were in love. But if you saw that thing, you would just know too. Besides I can safely assume they were married considering that I travel this same route everyday to school and for the last 2 months there has been a jeep parked outside that house with "JUST MARRIED" on the back of it.

It made me think of how amazing true love is. Not the phoney high school "ohhh you are my first love, we are going to be together forever, even though half the time you hate me and tell all your friends that, and half the time I ignore your phone calls when Im with my friends because you annoy me with your jealousy" kind of love. Real love makes everything in life better.

When I was a little girl, my biggest dream was to grow up and have boobs. Big boobs. I would dream about how awesome I would look, how boobs were so womanly and if I had them I would be a real woman. I would go out of my way to measure my boobs everyday compared to weird objects just to see if they were growing. I was 9. Where am I going with this? When I thought the whole world revolved around boobs, if I was having a bad day I would say to myself something like "its ok...Im gonna have boobs." or "in the future if anything bad happens to me, I can take comfort in knowing I have boobs. At least I will have boobs." Yeah I was weird. But anyway, that is how being grown up and marrying my husband felt. My boob comfort blanket was replaced by husband the comfort blanket.

If I am having a bad day, when I think about all the hard things I have to go through in my life, and I don't even know what they are yet, I take comfort in knowing that I have Scott. That no matter what happens, its gonna be ok, cause I have Scott. There is NO better feeling in the world.

Yesterday I was happy. Not just from the kiss, but actually happy...throughout the whole day. I was blissful infact, euphoria like. I dont think I even told my husband how happy I was. Was my situation any better than it was the day before? not really...infact Im pretty sure it was worse. We were more worried about money, our house was dirtier, we had less food, and we both had to go back to school and work. But I was on a high, a high of being in love with my husband. It was the best feeling in the world. I had that mentality that no matter what happens I have Scott, and its an amazing thing when you realize that Someone you can hold onto forever. Even when you are both suffering, the pain feels less in their arms. A lot of people in life never get married, but even a majority of those who do never really find their soul mate. But I found mine. He blesses my life everyday and makes me happy to know that he provides that true love feeling for me.

Don't get me wrong, not every moment is amazing. It would be realiastic if I made it out that way. But it is realistic to believe in real love and know for a fact you have it. Because I do. And once you do find it. You will know. Never settle for less. It will never be the same experience.

Its that complex, yet that simple.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Busy Bee's

The last week and a half has been SO busy. I said it was gonna be busy, but man it was BUSY! Here is a little re-cap of what we have been up to since last weekend! Im so happy we were able to get everything done. But sorry, this post is gonna be a long one! So much has happened :)

Friday the 19th, one Scott's favorite mission companions Mckay had his wedding reception. We attended that in Pleasant Grove and were able to meet up with a few of Scott's other old companions. It was a beautiful reception.







The next morning was Saturday the 20th which just happened to be Scott's birthday! That morning I had to get up early to do Brittany's hair and make-up (the same one I did bridals for.) It was her wedding that day in the Salt Lake Temple. Even though we weren't able to attend the reception because of our jam-packed day, Im sure it was amazing. Brittany you were a stunning bride. I felt honored to be your wedding stylist and thank you for letting me be part of your special day.





After I finished up with hair and make-up Scott and I dashed over to Mckay and Kirsti's sealing in the Draper Temple. I have never seen that many people attend a temple wedding before! But no doubt, since they are both the most amazing people ever! After the wedding we went to Gardener's Village for the luncheon with our friend BJ and Aubrey. Congrats Mckay and Kirsti! We are so happy for you :) (nevermind me, I look like CRAP from running around like a chicken with my head cut off lol)





After we were going to met his parents for dinner and while we waited, we stopped by a tree lot and saw this little guy!



I had never seen a reindeer in real life! Then we met Scott's mom and dad at McGrath's Fish house for his birthday dinner haha we were so full we didnt end up eating though, and we headed home for a MUCH needed night of sleep.



The next day we celebrated Scott's birthday by throwing him a dinner party at our house. I invited a bunch of our couple friends and I made the HUGEST bowl of pasta vodka with chicken, artichokes, and olives. After dinner we played the Adams Family game...(if you have never played it you should, it will definetly make you come out of your shell haha) after we played our game, our friend all went around and told their favorite thing about Scott. I felt very blessed to have such wonderful loving friends in our lives. Thank you everyone for sharing his birthday with us!










Then this week we had Thanksgiving! We went up to Hunstville agin to spend Thanksgiving with Scott's parents since we are spending Christmas with mine. We were able to see both of his sisters, Ember and Jessica, who I just love. Thanksgiving dinner was awesome and it made me think of all the things that I am thankful for, like my family, my friends, my home, my job, and most of all my HUSBAND!!!! Thanksgiving marked the one year anniversary since Scott proposed to me. There is nothing I could be more thankful for. He has blessed my life in unspeakable ways. He means everything to me, and Im so happy that he made the decision to make me his wife.








The next morning was Black Friday. And everyone knows what that means. Yes...4 am shopping. Scott and I got up at 3:30am to go to Target because they had a a tree on sale for 25 dollars. And man oh man did I want a Christmas tree. We got there, got our tree and a few other things we wanted, and booked it out of that hell hole. Utah people get crazy about their cheap deals. Typical. Then I went back to bed until 8 am when I went shopping at the mall with my friend Lyndsey. We got some sweet stuff from Forever 21 and Bath and Body works (mint chocolate and peppermint candles are a must for Christmas this year). Afterward we hit up Starbucks and snagged some Caramel cider and Peppermint Hot Chocolate. We even saw Geffory the Toys R Us giraffe in the parking lot while a crowd waiting for santa to land in the mall parking lot by helicopter. It was a succesful morning, Thanks for shopping with me Lyndsey!



Later that night we fianlly went on our date/Scott's birthday dinner at The Outback, it was so good. I strongly suggest the Alice Springs Quesadilla :) Then we went home and set up our Christmas tree and decorated it, which to me was really special since this is our first Christmas together. Then we lighte some candles, and watch Christmas Vacation. Wonderful end to the night!





The best the best day came yesterday, we met my lovely friend Karli and her fiance Blake for lunch at Cafe Rio..mmmmmmmm....yummmm. And then we finally went and saw, dun, dun, dun....HARRY POTTER 7! It was so good. But really scary and really really dark. Much darker than any Harry Potter before. But after it stared I quickly realized that I had not seen the previous Harry Potter leading up to this one! How could this have happened??? It just slipped by me and I lost track of what was going on. Crap. Now I have to go back and actually watch the Half Blood Prince. Way to go Morgan. Haha. We that's our Thanksgiving update. Hope everyone's holiday was wonderful!



Monday, November 22, 2010

scott is the funniest person ever

Today has been full of fun things. For instance this morning I got ready to run some errands, and after I got in the car it smelled SOOOOO bad like cat pee. Like I can't even tell you. I started smelling everything in my car looking for whatever it was that smelled like cat pee. It wasnt until I got to the store and pulled out my wallet that I realized the horrible horrible reality that was, that stinky peed, and yes I did say peed, in my juicy purse. And yes I said in my purse. The whole bottom of my purse was wet, and everything inside was ruined. Including my wallet, which by the way I had to go buy a new one day because of this. It was time though anyway because I have had the same wallet for 3 years.

Then today I realized stinky also peed on my white comforter. If it had not been for my animal loving I swear to you, I would have murdered her with a butcher knife. I believe this strange behavour is due to a combination of her being in heat/being spayed this last week. But if this does not fix itself fast, Stinky will no longer be a pet in our family.

Anyway, the best part of my day came tonight. Last night we had a super fun night with some friends for Scott's birthday that I will post later. But my friend Callista brought over this AMAZING pan of caramel brownies. Mind you this was a rather large pan. This morning Scott had put the brownies on 2 different paper towels. This afternoon I had 2 like 3 inch brownie crusts and some milk and that was it for me. By the time afternoon rolled around after Scott was home there was only 1 paper towel of brownies, and I just came home from school to NO brownies on any paper towels. I asked Scott where they went and I got the most ridiculous response ever. He said "Well you know how we wanted to lose some weight before we see your family for Christmas, well Im going to start tomorrow, so I got rid of them all today. Because if they were around it would just make it harder. And I ate the whole pan because 1. I wanted to and 2. I was looking out for your best interest."

He ate the entire pan of brownies in less than 12 hours, and his reasoning was because he was looking out for me. HAHAHA he gave me a good laugh.

Thanks for taking one for the team honey.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Blog Stalking

It has come to my attention through talking to a lovely friend of mine, that she has a stalker, and that stalker...is stalking my blog. i found this stalkers blog through curiosity into my friends situation, and came to realize that she is creeping on my blog and has taken the liberty of straight up COPYING and PASTING a certain 30 day blog challenge of my mine, right into her own blog, word for word (smiley face include)and replaced my husbands name for hers.

If this looks familiar:

I decided I would probably do the 30 day blog challenge all in one day because we have so much stuff to blog about this upcoming month and you all would be totally overloaded with crap on my blog. So we will see how this goes. Since I believe this challenge is made for an individual, I will try and and include Scott or us as a couple where I can. :)

* I might have to split this into like 3 posts! But it should be fun, and you should do it too!

its because you stole it from my blog. I am now aware you are looking at my stuff little lady. And im gonna have to say....that's creepy. you dont even know me.

that's. all.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Day 23-30

Day 23: 15 Facts about you
1. I don't like water. I would rather almost drink anything else
2. Im deaf in my right ear
3. I don't like taking showers. Of course I do it, but I dont like getting wet and it takes FOREVER to shave and and blowdry my hair
4. I stopped growing height wise when I was like 15
5. I am a perfectionist. Things have to be perfect. It might border on OCD
6. I almost always have to have some sort of noise in the background, like music, or tv. I usually sleep with the tv on.
7. until 2 years ago I slept with the light from my nightstand lamp on, everynight.
8. I actually got married right about the age I always knew I would. I never wanted to be a ridiculously young bride. I wanted to have been single for a while.
9. Although I haven't done it in a while, I am a very good dancer.
10. I am TERRIBLE at math
11. My favorite toy when I was a kid was barbie. For my 6th birthday I asked everyone of my friends for a barbie. I got 15 barbies that year. Every single one was a different kind.
12. I am a HUGE animal lover. I don't believe in hunting and I have considered being a vegetarian before. That didnt work out because 1. I love chicken too much 2. My husband said we would not be married if that was the case.
13. my nose is crooked because I broke it cheerleading. This causes me to have 2 different profiles.
14. I get tired really easily.
15. I have never not gotten a job I have interviewed for.

Day 24: A photo of something that means a lot to you



I love my little Stinkerbell

Day 25: What's in your purse
honestly my purse is full of crap. The other day my entire bottle of vitamins opened up and now they are all over the bottom of my purse :/


Day 26: A place you have been

Cancun, Mexico






Day 27: A picture of you a year ago and how you have changed


well this is more than a year ago, but this is when Scott and I were first looking at enegagement rings, Back in like June of last year. A lot changed since then. We got engagement, got married, moved to Utah, and started a whole new life.

Day 28:Your favorite movie

Well I love 7 pounds, A Walk to Remember, and The Notebook






Day 29: Something you never get tired of doing
eating!!!!!! hahahahahahah can you blame me????

Day 30: A photo of yourself today and 3 good things about you
I am NOT putting up a pic of myself today, but I will put up the most recent


this is from Halloween, and 3 good things about me....
1. I am a good friend
2. I am very driven
3. Im fun!


WOOHOO IM DONE!!!

Day 22

Day 22: A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

To whom it may concern:

This is not recent that you hurt me, but you are the only person in my life that I could think of that I could say I almost hate. I know Im supposed to have Christ like love, so I wont say I hate you, but you deserve it. You almost ruined my life. The things that you did to me then still scar my life now. You stole things from me that I can never get back. You changed how I view myself and how I feel others view me forever. You took a young girl and broke her down mentally till there was hardly the shadow of who I used to be. You were poisionus, you were a liar. You were a fake, and selfish, and you had me under your thumb through all your manipulations and lies. You hindered my life, you stunted my growth, you threw off all my plans.

But I got away. You told me daily everything that I was not, how I was lucky to even be graced by your presence. You did the most terrible things to me, things I never even came out about to my family and friends until just over a year ago. Remember when you rolled my arm up in your truck window and drove away, and I had to run along side your truck till someone stopped you? Remember that day you got me in the bed of your truck and drove around your neighborhood slamming on the brakes, turning corners so fast that I would slam up again the side of the truck bed. Remember all the bruises I had? Remember the time you pushed me so hard that I fell and smacked my head on the pavement, cut my head and all you told me was to get up? Remember that time you got sent home from your mission for smoking pot and then told everyone it was because of depression, and people still believe that? Remember when I found out you had sex with Amanda Hall and you shouldn't have been allowed to go on your mission in the first place? Remember when you totalled your GMC Jimmy because you were high, and afterward you laughed about how happy you were that no one figured out why the accident happened? Remember when you screwed arouund with 2 girls at once after prom because you were "rolling" on Ecstacy? Remember how you were such a pathetic liar that you would lie to me about what you had for lunch? Remember when you were drug dealer all through High School and continued even after your mission? Remember when you got fired from your job for having sex with a minor? Remember when you had been off your mission 3 days and you already went drinking at a bar? Remember when you lost every friend you had because everyone was sick of your lies? I don't care anymore that people know what you have done. I don't care to protect you. You deserve everything you get.

I found out what you did to your last girlfriend, doesn't suprise me ONE bit. and to think that you ACTUALLY tried to convinced people in your ward that you had changed. wow. I knew you would never change. People like you don't change. You're a liar. You're a terrible person. Im so grateful to God that he allowed me to get away from you. I cannot imagine my life if I had stayed. I don't value any of the time spent with you, I regret it. I regret it all. I wish I had never met you. I wish no one had ever met you. You are dangerous and should never be with anyone, you don't deserve anyone, better yet, they dont deserve you.

I dont feel bad exposing you for who you really are. You fool people, trick people into thinking you are good person so that the like you and get close to you. It isnt until later when you have played them and twisted them that they realize who you really are. Im not doing this in hate, Im doing this is hope. Hope that others will recognize what I recognized in you. I hope you find what you are looking for, and I pray for you that maybe someday you will change. (But you wont). Until then CB I just hope no one else falls for your trap.

-Morgan

Day 10-21

Day 10: Your favorite place to eat

EASY. Hapa Sushi. This little slice of heaven is back in Colorado unfortunatly. :( But honestly it is the most devine sushi you will ever eat. Happy Sumo is a sad comparisson. My favorite roll is called the Multiple Orgasm Roll. Yeah a little explict huh? Its ok. It deserves it's namesake.





DAY 11: What's in your make-up bag?

Always lipgloss. Most likely VS Beauty Rush or Bath and Body Works. Usually powder, like Sephora loose mineral powder. And of course Mascara. Usually The Falsies.


Day 12: The town where I live.


PROVO, UTAH



..I don't wanna talk about it.



Where I used to live: DENVER, COLORADO




...See a difference? I wanna go back.

Im skipping day 13...I dont have a favorite musician. I love music. period.


Day 14: A TV show im addicted to - The Buried Life
OK so I don't have time in my life to dedicate to watching a show religiously every night...WAIT. I tkae that back, we did have a thing for Jersey Shore lol But I do like The Buried Life. I think the stuff they do is so cool. Plus I secretly like Dave :) haha


Also I could watch never-ending episodes of Tosh.O he is hands down the funniest person alive. Plus I might like him too...




Day 15: Something you don't leave the house without
My cell phone


Day 16: Your celebrity crush


Where do I begin? ahaha jk
But really this man right here- Jared Leto. Doesn't his face make you happy??? He is a little weird and stuff but that's ok. I don't need him to talk. Just stand there and look hot.








and in fairness to Scott I will put up his lady crush...Faith Hill.
I understand. She is beautiful, can sing, and is a mom. Is there really a more perfect combo?





Day 17: A Picture of you and your family


These. people. mean. everything. to. me.

Day 18: Something I crave a lot

Chick-Fil-A Spicy Chicken Sandwhich. I can't look at it for too long. It makes my mouth water. I love spicy things, I love Chick-Fil-A. Match made in fast food heaven. I might just have to get one today.





Day 19: Another Picture of yourself


me and my sister Rachael at my Bachelorette party


Day 20:The meaning behind my blog name
well that should be kind of obvious...Scott and I are married, and our last name is Allen. Mystery solved.


Day 21: A picture of something that makes you happy


this little guy makes my whole life.